I love my husband. I love my children. I love where we are in our life. Right now. And I love where we are going. I love God and how He provides everything. From the food on our table to the sanity needed for daily life, mostly by the minute lately but more on that later.
When I step back to look at my life, I have to be thankful. Even for all the stress that I'm under. Some days, okay, so most days, I feel it more than others. Say when it's 3pm and I wonder why the floor looks I haven't swept in days when I did just that 2 hours ago (right after lunch) and all my children are all of a sudden pouncing on me whining to go play outside in the HEAT. I genuinly don't feel stressed about day to day living seeing as when my husband normally is out at work all day anyways, it's knowing he is deployed and not coming home that really just gets me some days. I cherish the time with my children but when they are in bed, I get lonely. I miss him just sitting there even when we don't talk. I miss adult time with my husband! The support when he is home is different than the support when is gone.
Lately though I've been a bit on the emotional side. I have no idea why. Everything is just making cry! Could be I'm tired and need a break in the monotony of life. I'm ready for Schuyler to be home. Even if it's only for a short while! Could also be that we don't know where we'll be in 6 months and the house has yet to sell. I'm really having trouble with the whole house selling. I wish it would sell quickly but I know in my head that it's all in God's timing.
It's getting my head and my heart to work together. Seriously. I know it will happen. I love my house. It's just the right size for us right now. I love it and wonder if anyone else will love it?
I better get going though. Bring this entry to a close to eat some dinner and put kids to bed! I love my life. Thank you Lord for all the people who make it wonderful.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
I'm here. Sitting on my couch trying to figure out what activities my children can do while I'm recovering from knee surgery. I need to stock up on play doh, paint and paper crafts. Plus I need to stock up on groceries. Not just veggies & fruits but also big packs of snacks and easy, fast recipes for my family to fix while I'm down under. Srsly. I'm reminded of the episode of Jon and Kate plus 8 where she makes all those dinners before leaving for a tummy tuck. Oh the irony I would compare myself to her when I am not anything close to the Type A personality. If only my mother could send off some of her type A-ness over the phone then I'd be all set.